1811-1812 How It All Began- Part 1 by Deborah E Pearson

Author:Deborah E Pearson [Pearson, Deborah E]
Language: eng
Format: epub
Published: 2017-11-29T05:00:00+00:00

Chapter 11

Do what you will, this world's a fiction and is made up of contradiction. William Blake

17th November 1811

Miss Elizabeth's visit at Netherfield continued for a total of five days, while her sister Jane recovered from her illness. During those days Darcy found himself looking forward to seeing Miss Elizabeth in the morning, and every morning he sent messages asking about Miss Jane's health. Breakfast was a joy and Darcy found himself eager to sit next to Miss Elizabeth. During those moments that he was in Miss Elizabeth's company that nagging feeling of loneliness lifted, but it soon descended even worse when she left the room. It was during this visit that Darcy realised that he was in great danger of falling in love. On the final day, Saturday, Darcy sat in the library with Elizabeth all morning, trying to read, and consequently, he didn't say a word to her all day. However, after Elizabeth had returned home, Darcy found himself regretting that as the house seemed cold and lonely.

Darcy could not contemplate why the loss of Elizabeth and her sister should result in him feeling lonely. However he decided that he would once again write to Georgiana to fill the pages with what had happened the last two days, having written two days previously, when he wrote a letter he did not intend to send, but rather just gave vent to the contradictions that were in his mind.

Dearest Georgiana,

I am lost. I am falling in love with one of the most unsuitable young ladies I have ever met. Her mother, as you know, is a horrid woman who wants nothing more than my ten thousand a year for her daughter, or would if I were to allow my interest to show. Miss Elizabeth is the wittiest and most vivacious woman I have ever met! She is so sensible and ladylike, yet does not seem to bother one wit about my money. She appears to be on a course to try and make me hate her, yet the cheekier she is, the more I love her for being so. She loves her sister so much that she came to Netherfield on her own, and walked the whole three miles ending up with petticoats that were six inches thick with mud, which though I noticed them, they detracted nothing from how bright the exercise has made her eyes. Those beautiful eyes! Georgiana, you would not imagine how many nights I have gone to sleep with the image of those soft brown eyes, in which I wish to drown. I find that I have found a woman that I could make an offer to, Georgiana, and yet I cannot make that offer for mother and father would forbid such a union were they alive to see it.

I cannot describe to you how torn I feel right now. I am beginning to love this girl so much, and yet I know that she's forbidden fruit. I fear dearest Georgiana that I am a lost cause now.

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